So, I found out a bunch of stuff on my family tree without doing one of those ancestry things or a DNA test. I know it could be traced back with records and whatnot, though DNA might not pan out so well ultimately. I don't know.

But I do know that the weirdo conspiracy thing about the pyramids is close to the truth, probably one of them, I guess there are several different stories. I don't even believe in UFOs. Even now, as I say that I was drawn up into a spaceship. But this one wasn't a UFO it was a specific ship on a specific mission. I guess.
It specifically came to earth (is that supposed to be capitalized? Earth?) to at least check on me. I got the impression it was supposed to pick me up and take me back with it. I'm not sure but I think I didn't pass the, sort of, tests I guess they were? They had me do all these different sorts of things and they were obviously tracking like my time or if I understood what was expected...that kind of thing. I couldn't tell if I was doing good.
In the end they only said, or...like told me but they didn't use words for that; they told me that I would not be returning with them. As they had expected me to.

Umm, there is some ancestry connection way back where my ancestors are from this planet they are from. I sounds like there were some of these 'aliens' put here way back. I don't know if they got lost track of or were research type people or even, maybe criminals like with Australia? It may be there are others here. Maybe that's where they went after dropping me back? I do know that somehow my...whatever their version of DNA is has been kept pretty separate from everyone else. Maybe that's even the issue with why I'm staying here on earth...Earth.
So maybe they have a list of people here that they have to run these tests on and get together the ones that pass the tests.

It's really weird to find out that you are not what you always thought you knew. I guess they have more advanced stuff, tech-wise than we do. So I can hold onto that, which would be good. As long as I don't talk about it too much I could always feel like I'm from a high tech family. I do wonder if there's any other people this happened to, and maybe they're embarrassed and keeping it to themselves.

I tried to make myself get fulfilled at my job. I didn't let the self-talk get negative. I didn't look out too far ahead, tried to stay in the present, after all in the present is where change happens and maybe something would change. In me, or in the company or people around me. So I didn't plan on change but I guess I had been hoping something will force change my life.
Then I realized that every loser ever has waiting for something to force a change. If only I knew what I wanted. I was really capable as far as knowing what I didn't want.

Fast forward to now. So I'm more aware of different things I don't want, not on top of what I do want. Though I am sort of, maybe actually sure of what I do want, except it's completely out of reach.
Completely.
Not, like twenty million dollars. There's really no starting point on what I want. Money I could strive for, maybe never get it but it would be a focused goal.
'Actually, I do have to strive for money now..', I quit my job about a year ago.

"Wakey, wakey..." someone snapped their fingers. 'literally snapping your fingers at me..?' I usually am not amazed at the thoughtlessness and stupidity of retail customers...
"Hey!" - and another finger snap

"Yes Ma..." I started to say 'Ma'am' but this was a kid...well,no...yeah a kid, "Excuse me?" I looked right at her.
She didn't flinch; had sort of a smirk...proud of herself... "Are you addressing me?" I went with my full authority adult voice.
"Mister Dee..!!" she started laughing.

There's no one here who knows me. 'I'm three States away...Mister Dee?...how?'