Being able to go invisible is not as big as a perk as it sounds. You constantly have to control your feelings and make sure you don’t accidentally disappear in front of people, or you could get reported to ASTRA- Agency for Superhuman Tracking& Regulating of Abilities. They could give you an ability inhibitor or in extreme cases, relocate you to a new city, and the incident would go on your record. ASTRA is a secret government agency that keeps tabs on people like me with special talents- Variants.

From the outside, I look like your average teen girl- short, wavy brown hair, small build, and brown eyes just like the rest of my family. Only I’m not like them. I can still remember the first time it happened even though it was almost ten years ago, when we were living in Florida.

I was six, and my mom had taken me and my twin sister, Hayley, to the playground. She was on the swings, and I was poking around in the bushes when my hand nearly brushed a ribbon snake and like any normal six-year-old, I screamed. And that’s when I felt it- a sort of cold chill run over my body. “Annaliese!” My mom screamed my name. Apparently, just for a second, I flashed invisible. My mom dragged me, still crying, and my sister home. I’ve hated snakes ever since. My mom became my handler- the one responsible for me and my abilities until I turned 18. She knew exactly what to do because something similar had happened to my aunt Missy and my mom was her handler too. I spent 6months in special therapy learning to control my new ability. My mom and my aunt are the only people outside of my ASTRA agent who know my secret. My sister has no idea and will never know unless one of her kids inherits it. Only one girl every generation in my family can do it. Hayley is the complete opposite of me- long blond hair, Barbie blue eyes, and the confidence of someone who doesn’t have an enormous secret to hide. I am the constantly cautious one-always keeping my guard up in case anything triggers my invisibility. I’ve almost never slipped up- only a few times.

There’s a difference between being careful and being afraid.

I live right on that line.

Every morning before school, I stand in front of the mirror and do a mental checklist the same way my therapist taught me years ago: breathe in for four, hold for four, out for four. Notice the room. Notice your body. Notice that you are still here.

Solid. Visible. Ordinary.

“Annaliese, you’re going to be late!” Mom calls from downstairs.

“I’m coming!” I grab my backpack and take one last look at my reflection. Brown eyes, wavy hair, nothing remarkable. Just a girl who definitely, absolutely will not vanish in the middle of math class today.

Hopefully.

***

School is the hardest place to keep control. Too many people, too many surprises, too many chances for something to jolt me the wrong way. Loud noises, sudden fear, intense embarrassment—any spike in emotion can send that icy ripple across my skin. The warning sign.

Disappear, it whispers.

Don’t, I answer back every single time.

By third period, I’m doing okay. History is boring enough to keep my heart rate stable, and Mrs. Calloway drones on about ancient empires while I scribble notes and focus on the rhythm of my breathing. Across the room, Hayley laughs at something her friend whispers. Of course she’s laughing. Hayley laughs at everything. She lives like the world is safe.

She has no idea it isn’t.

At lunch, I sit with her and the rest of her group like always, pretending I belong there instead of constantly calculating exits and sightlines. If something happens, where can I move without anyone noticing? How long before someone panics? Would the cameras catch it?

Yes. Cameras always catch everything.

“You okay?” Hayley asks suddenly, studying me. “You’ve been quiet.”

“I’m fine,” I say quickly. Too quickly. I force a smile. “Just tired.”

She narrows her eyes, but then someone starts talking about an upcoming school trip and she’s distracted again. That’s the thing about Hayley—her attention moves like sunlight on water. Bright, warm, and never staying still long enough to notice the shadows underneath.

I envy that.

I really do.

***

The near-slip happens in science lab.

It’s stupid, really. Nothing dramatic. No snakes, no screams. Just a beaker, a Bunsen burner, and one careless elbow.

The glass tips.

It shatters on the floor with a sharp crack.

Everyone jumps. Someone yelps. The smell of chemicals fills the air.

And there it is.

That cold, creeping chill sliding over my arms, up my neck, like invisible frost. My pulse spikes. My hands tremble. I can almost feel the edges of myself loosening, blurring, thinning—

No.

I grip the edge of the desk so hard my knuckles ache. Breathe in. Hold. Out. Focus on something real. The heat from the burner. The rough texture of the tabletop. The weight of my body pressing into my shoes.

“I’m fine,” I whisper to no one. “I’m fine, I’m fine, I’m fine—”

The chill lingers for one awful second longer… and then fades.

I stay. No one notices anything except the broken glass. Mr. Patel rushes over, scolding the boy who knocked the beaker while the rest of the class buzzes with excitement. To them, it was just a minor accident.

To me, it was a line I almost crossed.

My heart doesn’t slow down until the bell rings.

***

When I get home, Mom is already waiting at the kitchen table.

She always knows.

Maybe it’s instinct. Maybe it’s the way I hold myself when I walk through the door, like I’m bracing for impact. She doesn’t ask right away. She just watches me set my bag down and sit across from her.

“Where did it happen?” she asks quietly.

“Science lab,” I admit. “Glass broke. I almost… you know.”

Her jaw tightens, but she nods. “Did anyone see?”

“No.”

“Any cameras?”

“I don’t think so.”

She exhales slowly, tension leaving her shoulders by degrees. “Okay. Then it’s just another close call. Not a reportable incident.”

Not reportable. Those words sit heavy in my stomach.

Because that’s the real fear, isn’t it? Not the invisibility itself, but what comes after if I mess up in the wrong place, in front of the wrong person. ASTRA doesn’t like unpredictability. They track, monitor, evaluate. If you’re stable, you stay where you are. If you’re not…

Well.

There are options.

None of them good.

“You’re getting better,” Mom says, softer now. “You held it back.”

“Barely.”

“But you did.”

I stare at the table. “What if one day I don’t?”

She doesn’t answer right away. She never lies to me, which means silence is usually the closest thing to reassurance she can offer.

Finally, she reaches across the table and squeezes my hand. “Then we deal with it. Like we always have.”

Handler and Variant. Mother and daughter. The lines blur sometimes, but they never fully disappear.

Unlike me.
***

That night, I lie in bed staring at the ceiling, replaying the moment over and over. The shattering glass. The rush of fear. The almost.

Almost is the most dangerous word in my life.

My phone buzzes on the nightstand. A message from an unknown number lights up the screen.

Unknown: You maintained control today. Good.

My stomach drops.

I sit up, suddenly wide awake, fingers hovering over the keyboard.

Me: Who is this?

The typing bubble appears almost immediately, like they were waiting.

Unknown: Just a reminder. Stay within safe parameters. Your record is currently clear. Let’s keep it that way.

My hands go cold.

ASTRA doesn’t usually contact me directly. Communication normally goes through Mom, through official channels and scheduled evaluations. This… this feels different. More personal. More like a warning than a check-in.

Me: Were you watching me?

Three dots. Pause. Then—

Unknown: We always are.

For a long moment, I just stare at the screen.

We always are.

The words don’t feel official. They feel smug.

I glance at my bedroom window even though the curtains are closed. My room suddenly feels smaller, like the walls leaned in while I wasn’t looking.

Me: This isn’t protocol.

The typing bubble appears. Disappears. Appears again.

Unknown: Protocol adapts.

That’s not how ASTRA talks. Not in reports. Not in evaluations. They use structured language. Cold language. “Incident.” “Fluctuation.” “Containment.”

Not this.

My heart starts climbing again—that same dangerous spike from the lab. I force myself to inhale slowly. Four counts in. Hold. Four out, like my therapist taught me.

Solid. Visible. Ordinary.

Me: If this is an official contact, you need to go through my handler.

The reply takes longer this time.

Unknown: Your handler is aware of your stability metrics. This is supplementary oversight.

Metrics.

That part sounds real.

But something about it is wrong.

I swing my legs off the bed and pad down the hall. Mom’slight is still on. She’s at the kitchen table with her laptop open, answeringan email.

She looks up immediately. “Everything okay, sweetie?”

I don’t answer. I just hand her my phone.

She reads the messages once. Then again, slower.

Her expression changes—not panic. Not exactly. Sharper thanthat.

“They didn’t contact me,” she says quietly.

“So it’s real?” My voice comes out smaller than I meant ittoo.

She doesn’t reply right away. Instead, she types somethingon her laptop. I catch a glimpse of an encrypted portal screen before sheangles it away from me.

“I’m checking,” she says. “Go back upstairs.”

“I’m not six. I want to know what’s happening.”

“I know,” she says gently. “Go anyway.”

I hover in the hallway instead.

Five minutes pass.

Then ten.

When she finally calls me back in, her mouth is set in athin line.

“It’s not from Agent Keller,” she says. “At least notofficially.”

My stomach drops. “What does that mean?”

“It means someone with access pinged your file withoutfiling a standard notice.” She closes the laptop carefully. “It means we needto be more careful.”

More careful.

There’s that line again—the one between careful and afraid.

“Are they allowed to do that?” I ask.

“Allowed?” She almost smiles, but there’s no humor in it.“ASTRA allows itself a lot of flexibility.”

I sit down across from her. “So they were watching today.”

“Yes.”

“The cameras?”

“Probably.” She hesitates. “Or something more sensitive.”

More sensitive? Like a bug?

“You said my record was clear,” I whisper.

“It is,” she says firmly. “One near-spike under thresholddoesn’t change that.”

“But now someone’s interested.”

She doesn’t deny it.

Silence stretches between us.

“Mom,” I say slowly, “what happens if someone decides I’m not stable enough?”

Her eyes meet mine.

“Then they review you.”

“And if they don’t like what they see?”

Her hand tightens around mine.

“Then we fight it.”

Fight.

That’s new.

I go back upstairs eventually, but I don’t sleep.

At 1:17 a.m., my phone buzzes again.

Unknown: You escalated quickly tonight.

My chest tightens.

Me: I showed my handler.

The reply is immediate.

Unknown: Of course you did.

A pause.

Unknown: Keep your emotions regulated, Annaliese. You’revery close to optimal control. It would be unfortunate to disrupt thatprogress.

Unfortunate.

Not dangerous. Not catastrophic.

Inconvenient.

Like I’m a project.

My fingers hover over the keyboard, then lower without typing.

I block the number. Then turn on my light and walk over to my mirror and stare at my reflection.

Brown eyes. Wavy hair. Solid.

But for the first time in a long time, the fear isn’t about disappearing in front of my classmates.

It’s about who’s watching when I don’t.