Mom brushed my hair before I went to bed.

"Sophia, you need to be looking good tomorrow, okay?" Mom asked me.

I nodded. "Yeah, but will you be gone like Dad?"

"No, Sophia, why would you think that?"

"I don't know."

There was a knock at the door and Mom opened the door.

It was Dad.

"Joseph, our daughter, she is getting so big, come take a look at her," Mom said, hurrying him inside my room.

"Dad, will you be here for my eleventh birthday?"

"No, Sophia," Dad said.

"Why not?" I asked, tears forming in my eyes.

"Because Sophia! I don't love you anymore!" he yelled at me.

"B-b-b-but you said you would be here for all my birthdays, you said that when I was five or younger," I said, the tears that had formed in my eyes fell off my face.

Mom shook her head. "Joseph, don't yell at her, please."

But he just stormed off.

Maid Charlotte came in and told Mom she could take care of me.

"Oh, Charlotte," I said, slinging my arms around her waist. "Make me look as pretty as I am now but ten times as pretty."

"Yes, of course, Mistress," she said.

I looked in my wardrobe and pointed to the nightgown I wanted to wear to sleep.

"Of course, right away, Mistress," Charlette said, getting it out.

She took off my dress, corset, and hoop skirt off, she put my nightgown on me and I went out to hug Mom night.

"Sophia is a good kid, Joseph!" Mom yelled, quietly.

"No! She's! Not!" Dad yelled, three simple words that stung like a wasp.

I ran up to Mom and hugged her. "Goodnight, I love you."

She hugged me back. "Goodnight sweetie, I love you too."

I went back to my room before Dad could insult me anymore.

Charlette continued her story she told me every night. "And so, Mary went. . ."

I don't remember anything past that point in the story because I fell asleep.

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I woke up the next morning to Charlette working around my bed a bunch of wrapped objects and boxes with big bright ribbons sat scattered around my room.

I got out of bed. "Charlette!"

"Yes, Mistress?" she asked.

"Get me dressed."

"What would you like to wear today?"

I pointed to one. "That one."

She took it out. It had a short skirt that was made of many layers of lace, little flowers went up to the top of it thin straps made of elastic, two fairy-like wings on the back of sleeves that showed the shoulders made out of lace, the top bigger than the bottom, a bow sat in between the breasts, there was a bow in the back too, lace fell from the bow, pink and black everywhere on the dress, on the top of the dress gold lace trim sat above the breasts, a pink choker-like necklace went along with it, black high heels with black lacey ribbons, more lace came from the sides of the skirt.

She picked a bow that fit best with the dress, or at least she thought it did. It was purple with some blue some was white; there was a beautiful crystal gem star thing.

I looked at myself in the mirror and smiled. "I'm so gorgeous."

"Yes, you are."

I headed out of my room for breakfast.

I had barely entered the dining room before Father turned to me in shock.

“Sophia!” He said sharply. “What are you wearing!”

I stopped short of the doorway. “It is a special dress. For my birthday.”

Mother turned then, placing her teacup down with a graceful might. “You look wonderful, darling. Joseph, please—“

”Don’t encourage her, Martine,” Father snapped. “I will not have that girl flouncing around my house looking like a whore.”

“Joseph!” Mother gasped, and I felt my stomach turn.

“Martine, you must see it too.”

”Charlette said I looked gorgeous,” I trailed off, suddenly aware of the growing lump in my throat that threatened to burst into tears.

“Charlette!” Father threw up his hands in disgust, sending his plate crashing to the floor. “Of course, only that harlot your mother insisted on hiring out of her own pity would dress an eleven year old up as a nymphette for her birthday. You are a spoiled brat, Sophia, and you have no respect for anyone’s dignity, let alone your own.” He paused to breathe, lowering his voice into an imitation of calm. “And you will not be seeing the estate’s money again until you are 21.”

Mother stared at him, mouth agape. “Joseph, you did not tell me—

“You as well, woman. You both have forgotten your place, the things I do for you. St Augustine’s has clearly taught you daughter nothing in the ways of decorum. Maybe Franklin High will do some good.”

My heart sank. He was pulling me out of St Augustine’s? My home away from home? I had lived in it dorms every day since I was four, and Matron Ellis was like a mother to me as much as Charlette and my own mother were. And my friends—oh, Petunia and Arabella and Winnie—would I ever see them again? God knows they would never speak to a public school student.

Franklin High.

The words alone made me shiver.

“Joseph, please—“ Mother bargained somewhere distant, but I could only hear the pounding of blood in my ears. This stupid dress was too tight, lace burning my back like hot irons. I needed to get away, needed to—

“Sophia.” Father’s voice was firm. “Come here. I want to discuss the arrangements with you.”

I obeyed, though my shoes felt as if they were filled with treacle, heavy and slow, sticking to the polished floor with every step.

“Sophia. I have arranged for you and your mother to go live in a flat near Franklin High. Your mother will need to find her own job, and you, go to school and live normally. Do you understand?”

I didn’t look him in the eyes for fear of crying. “Yes, Papa.”

”Now, you do not know this, so I will say it to you gently: I am afflicted with a terminal disease. I have been given a decade to live. By that time, you will be 21, and you and Martine will be free to return to this estate and do whatever you wish with my money.”

The floor dropped out from under me.

“What?” I asked.

Mother only sighed beside me. “Go to your room Sophia. Charlette will bring you breakfast, and I will explain everything.”

I turned and obeyed, but as I approached the doorway, my father spoke again.

“Charlette will be fired this afternoon, and you and Martine must give up the Oberfell surname.”

I had never ran up the stairs so quick, let alone in heels. My ankles twisted and turned, but I did not stop until I was under the covers of my own bed. Then, the dam broke, and all came crashing down.

I sobbed for what felt like eternity, though it couldn’t have been more than half an hour because when I roused, the breakfast tray sat on my table, tea still warm.

It was the most beautiful of birthday breakfasts: poached quails eggs and steak and watercress, alongside cinnamon pancakes and a large bowl of fruit. Beside it sat two cups: tea, and a small glass of something clear and bubbling.

Attached to it was a note:

Sophia,
Your first drink, to celebrate you going into secondary school: it is not enough to get you drunk, so don’t get any ideas! I have received the news with great sorrow, which I suspect your mother will explain to you in due course. Best of luck with everything, my gorgeous girl.
—Charlette Mathers

I lifted the small glass to my lips and tasted the champagne. It was disgusting: bitter and burning and sharp like medicine, or even worse, poison. I choked on the first sip and had to eat a strawberry to chase away the taste.

Then, my mother entered, and sat down on the bed beside me, stroking my hair.

“Mama?” I asked. “Why are we getting sent away?”

Mother sighed. “Sophia. We have been keeping a secret from you for a very long time.”

I held my breath. “Go on.”

”I did not birth you. Charlette did. She came to us as a young maid, barely nineteen, and got herself pregnant with a tailor’s apprentice who had come to fit your father’s wedding suit.”

”What happened to Charlette?” I asked.

“Nothing,” my mother said, voice smooth. “I found out before it was obvious. I was unable to have children, and your father was beginning to resent me for it. Me and Charlette stayed by the seaside for a while, claiming I had fallen ill and needed to be on my own for a while, and when we returned with a child months later…”

”…you said I was your own.”

Mother nodded. “Charlette kept her job, and your father was happy. He was none the wiser, until last year.”

”Last year?”

“Your biological father, this tailor’s apprentice, Dan Hardings, died in an accident last year. The inheritance couldn’t go to Charlette, as she was unwed. It went to you, through your father’s accounts. He found out then.”

”How much was it?”

Mother almost laughed then. “Barely enough to pay for a week at St Augustine’s, Sophia. He was enraged that he could have given all this money and luxury to the child of a tailor and a maidservant. And at me, too.”

”For lying?”

Mother nodded.

“Is that why we’re being sent away?”

”Yes, darling. Your father has cancer. It will kill him in a decade.”

”Then we can come back?”

”Yes. But I need you to pick a different name. Your last name is essential, but you can pick a new first name if you want.”

I paused then, and thought for a long time. “Mama, what was your name before you married Father?”

”Garnier.”

I thought then, of Charlette Mathers, and Dan Harding, and Martine Garnier, and Sophia and Joseph Oberfell.

The name seemed obvious.

“Then I shall be Danielle Garnier-Mathers. Do you like that?”

Mother smiled. “It’s beautiful.”

The cab smelled of wet wool and tobacco, and I pressed my face against the cold glass as London swallowed us whole.

I had been to London before, of course, for theatre matinees and department store fittings and once for a very dull cousin's christening--but I had never arrived like this: with two trunks between us and no one to carry them, Mother's gloved hands folded too tightly in her lap, the Oberfell name left behind like a coat on a hook.

"Mama," I said. "Where exactly is the flat?"

"Bethnal Green," she said, and nothing more.

I turned back to the window. The streets narrowed and darkened as we went, the grand white terraces of the west giving way to soot-stained brick and market awnings, to children sitting on kerbs and laundry strung between windows like bunting at a party nobody was celebrating. I watched a woman in a plain grey dress argue with a fishmonger over what appeared to be tuppence.

I had never in my life argued over tuppence.

The cab stopped outside a thin building wedged between a pawnbroker's and a shop selling bolts of cloth. A hand-painted sign on the door read FLATS B, C & D — INQUIRE WITHIN.

"Here we are," said Mother.

I stared at it. "Mama. This is where we live now?"

"Yes." She stepped out and began wrestling with the smaller trunk herself. I watched her for a moment before something uncomfortable moved through me, some new, unfamiliar thing that I recognised, dimly, as shame as I climbed out to help her.

The landlady, a Mrs Poole, met us in the hallway. She was a wide, sensible woman with flour on her apron and the expression of someone who had heard every variety of hard-luck story and was not moved by any of them.

"Mrs Garnier?" she said, looking my mother over.

"Yes," said Mother, without flinching. It was the first time I had heard her use that name. She wore it with a posture I envied, straight-backed and deliberate, as though she had been Martine Garnier her whole life and had only just remembered it.

Mrs Poole showed us upstairs to Flat B. It was small. Two bedrooms, a sitting room, and a kitchen so narrow you could touch both walls. The wallpaper was yellow with age and peeled in the corner above the fireplace, and the single window in the sitting room faced the brick wall of the building next door.

"Towels are in the wardrobe," said Mrs Poole. "Hot water until nine. No guests after ten. Rent is due on Fridays." She paused at the door. "There's a girl two floors up, about your daughter's age. Eleanor. She starts Franklin High Monday as well, if that's any comfort."

She left before I could formulate an opinion about whether it was.

I sat down on the edge of what was apparently now my bed and looked at the ceiling. A water stain in the shape of no particular thing looked back.

"It's awful," I said.

"Yes," said Mother, sitting beside me. She did not try to dress it up, which I appreciated more than I would have expected. "It is rather awful."

"What will you do? For work, I mean."

She was quiet a moment. "I have been corresponding with a dressmaker in Marylebone. I kept her address these past years. She once told me I had the finest eye for fabric of any woman she had met, client or otherwise." A pause. "I will call on her tomorrow."

I looked at her sideways. "You're going to be a seamstress?"

"I am going to find out whether I can be," she said simply, and folded her hands in her lap with the same quiet composure she had worn all day, through every indignity, and I thought then that I did not know my mother nearly as well as I had believed.

I reached into my coat pocket. My fingers closed around the small folded note Charlette had tucked beneath the champagne glass. I had been saving it, the way you save the last square of chocolate: knowing it is the last makes you reluctant to finish it.

I unfolded it.

P.S. I am at 14 Dunmore Street, Stepney, if you should ever need me. I do not intend to be hard to find. All my love, always -- your Charlette Mathers.

I read it twice. Then I folded it and put it back in my pocket, close to my chest.

Outside, London went about its business, indifferent and enormous and entirely unimpressed with the ruin of my former life. A cart horse clattered past. Someone somewhere was frying onions.

"Mama," I said. "Stepney. Is that far from here?"

Mother looked at me for a long moment.

"No," she said at last. "It is not far at all."