Finch remembers the lanterns.

That’s how it always begins — with light drifting above the fields like a slow constellation, bobbing on the wind. Every year, on the longest day, the children would carry paper lanterns down to the river. They were shaped like birds, or fish, or the long curling horns of the goddesses’ mounts, and as the sun set, they were set afloat to follow the current toward the lowlands. It was said Brigantia watched from the water’s edge, counting each one before dawn.

He remembers Serai’s hand on his shoulder, warm and steady. He remembers the scent of crushed mint and smoke. He remembers laughter — his own, high and thin, carried away by the river. He remembers whispering a wish into the lantern’s paper belly before setting it free.

He remembers saying, “For everyone to be healed.”

He was small enough then to believe wishes needed no precision.

The image is bright in him still — the ripple of flame reflected in water, the gentle touch of Serai’s fingers when he pushed the lantern into the current, the way the whole river glowed like a string of stars. When he was sick, that’s what he would close his eyes and see: not the fever, not the walls of the Sanctum ward, but the light drifting away and the world briefly beautiful.

But he dreams it again now, years later, after the fever, after everything — and the river in the dream is wider than it should be. The banks are choked with reeds that weren’t there before. The water moves too fast, too deep. The air smells not of mint but of vinegar. And Serai isn’t beside him. Someone else stands there instead, taller, her voice like dry grass: “Light it. Quickly, before the wind.”

When Finch lifts his lantern, it isn’t made of paper at all. It’s bone — thin ribs wired together, hollow-eyed, glowing from within. The flame inside is wild, eating through the bone like sickness through flesh. He sets it in the water and watches it sink. The current takes it under without a trace.

He looks for Serai, calls his name, but the river answers first — a low rushing that sounds almost like a voice.

When he wakes, there is little light. He pushes open the door to the Sanctum office. There’s the smell of damp herbs, the clink of glass, the quiet of work beginning. Serai works over dried flowers, grinding them into dust.

“Finch. It’s cold,” Serai says, getting up and draping something soft across Finch’s shoulders. “You need a shawl.”

“Did we used to send lanterns down the river?” Finch asks, sitting down. His voice feels too soft for the question.

Serai pauses, pestle quietening. He stays silent for a long time. “We did,” he says finally. “Not every year, but once. The year before you got sick.”

Finch nods. “I thought it was beautiful.”

“It was.”

Serai's smile is audible, but there’s a shadow behind it. “But it wasn’t a festival. It was a vigil. We sent the lanterns for the ones who’d already died.”

He still sees the lights — hundreds of them — the names, the prayers, the farewells. He remembers the silence, not laughter. He remembers Serai’s hand trembling when he lit his own lantern. He remembers the smell of smoke from the pyres downriver. He remembers that when he whispered his wish, Serai closed his eyes as if he couldn’t bear to hear it.

The memory settles back into place. Heavier, but no uglier. Because even then, even surrounded by death, Serai had helped him light the lantern and had smiled, as if to say that wishing was still a kind of healing. He keeps the image of it: a thousand small flames, carried away by water, their glow trembling like forgiveness.

Outside, the river keeps flowing. The lanterns are long gone, but sometimes, when the evening catches right, Finch swears he can still see them. Not as they were, but as he needs them to be.